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半工半读

2012-02-09T21:17:00.002+08:00

最近两个月，工作的时间比读书的时间还长。
早起不是为了上学，而是为了主持morning show!
每次找借口推掉morning show, 可是最后还是心软决定帮忙。
因为他们真~的~很~缺~人。

现在多数小学的assembly都在升旗礼之后，第一堂课之前。
让这些小学生以灿烂的笑容迎接新的一天...也算功德无量啦。
而且又有钱拿。
搭德士又可以claim。
累的话，回家还可以睡午觉...OK啦。

承蒙大家关照/推荐/介绍/通风报信，我的lobang也越来越多。
圣诞/新年/农历新年的mall shows结束后，才休息了一下下，又有华艺节/ValenWine/NTU Open House.
很贪心的，全都接下来了。
虽然知道做FYP的时间越来越少，还是接下来了。
因为毕业后找到全职工作，就没有机会主持了。
除非，我的全职工作是当主持。

主持，是可以当饭吃的。
只是竞争很激烈。
话说回来，有哪一个行业竞争不激烈的？

说了那么多话/打了那么多字，我要去吃枇杷膏润润喉了。

uncles aunties nephews nieces

2012-01-28T12:49:00.003+08:00

i still like Chinese New Year.
even though it used to be more fun.
playing mahjong, poker, board games, sparklers and singing karaoke with my cousins.

now that most of them are married with kids, they have other stuff to do on 初一.
give out ang pows, take care of kids, feed kids, entertain kids, show off kids.

so besides receiving ang pows, i entertain kids too (income opportunity hohoho).
since i'm getting better and better at it.
since there's more and more kids for me to entertain.
(seriously, are my cousins baby-producing machines or what?!)

i can definitely foresee my cousins sending their kids to me for Chinese tuition.
HELLO. PLEASE SPEAK MANDARIN TO YOUR KIDS AT HOME.
OR ELSE THEY WILL SUFFER...IN MY HANDS...WHEN THEY GROW UP.

haiz. 3-year-old playing games on iPad. what is this world coming to?!
i would rather play Simon Says or Hide & Seek with them.
at least there's more...human interaction.

thankfully my relatives are not your average irrinoying uncles & aunties.
they still wish me 学业进步 year after year, without asking about my relationship status.
maybe they're afraid to 踩到地雷 (i'm known for my bad temperament).
maybe there's other cousins to serve as distraction (yeah my younger cousins started bringing their PARTNERS this year).
or maybe there's the ultimate distraction: MY BIG FAT ROUND FACE.

so, my dear nephews and nieces:
when you're my age, it's perfectly fine to play with your Android and ignore all those unnecessary interaction.
but for now, learn to mingle and get all your 称呼s right. you can't get away by calling everyone UNCLE, cos there's a truckload of UNCLES in that house.
and i'm one of them.

GUYS

2012-01-11T21:31:00.004+08:00

i doubt any guys read my blog. right? GUYS? *silence*
okie good. cos this post is about YOU GUYS.

it's a known fact that i have VERY FEW buddies.
from pri to sec to JC to uni, i'm always the only guy in my clique.
okie except NS.
but that one not counted as clique. just friends, or ex-colleagues.
it's not like i would wanna hang out with them on weekends.

those monthly KTV outings, pre-KTV dinner, post-KTV supper, post-supper cab rides are burning holes in my pockets.
and they always have to choose Fri nites, when it costs $20++ for 3 hrs of KTV (cos they only go PartyWorld. TSK.)
which is why i always come up with excuses to avoid these outings.

we really dun have much to talk about (except reminiscing about army days, which is a total waste of 2 yrs of my life).
we just eat & sing & eat & sing & eat.
and i always reach home REALLY LATE, bored & exhausted.

to be frank, it's not just them.
i always consciously distance myself from guys, even when they try to be friendly (YES INCLUDING MY DAD & BRO-IN-LAW).
there are a few guys (not from NS) who always sms/whatsapp/fb me.
i know they are trying to keep in touch, show concern blah blah blah.
but sorry i find them a nuisance.
and i dun feel like replying them, cos if i do, the conversation will go on & on & on until i suddenly stop replying.

and i dun feel like going out with them, even if it's just for lunch or dinner.
WE. JUST. DUN. HAVE. ANYTHING. IN. COMMON.
i'm not stereotyping, but guys do always talk about soccer, sports, girls, cars, rock music & army days.
BORINGGGGGG.
and i can't be my dramatic bitchy gossipy self when i'm with them.
and sometimes i find it difficult to get my point across to them.

yeah.
so.
my life has been perfect without buddies.
and it will continue to be.
no regrets.

my parents have accepted the fact that their son is always surrounded by ladies (sisters, not girlfriends).
ever since my pri 6 birthday party at macdonalds.
i still remember their shocked faces when they saw my 25 female classmates.
YES I INVITED ALL THE GIRLS IN MY CLASS, AND NONE OF THE GUYS.
it started wayyyyyy back in pri sch.

since i'm not gonna get married, i wuden have to worry about forming a 兄弟团.
and i dun need fashion advice from guys (it will be damn awkward to shop together).
and i'm really not used to 勾肩搭背-ing with guys (although i totally dun mind doing that with hunks).
*winks*

and so it is...

2011-12-30T12:30:00.001+08:00

2011 was a good year.

was it better than 2010? maybe not.
with my taiwan exchange and all the drama rehearsal madness, 2010 is quite hard to beat (in terms of fun).

one of my highlights of 2011, would have to be my hosting "career", which began in June. really learnt a lot from all those veteran emcees. at least now i'm certain that freelance is not my thing. 兴趣不能当饭吃. and hosting is not exactly my best talent LOL.

looks like Lady Luck finally decided to shine on me.
what a morale booster to end my 2nd final semester with a bang! i think i haven't scored straight A's since...PSLE. *gasp*
won an Android phone from a Singtel contest! all i did was post a funny comment, apparently it was funny enough to garner so many "likes" hohoho! usual price $598 and i got it for free! 是上天的旨意，要我跟上时代的脚步? MUAHAHAHA!

2012 preview: finish FYP, start job-hunting, finish exams, grad trip, family trip, convocation, start work, enjoy work, survive 21/12/2012, countdown to 2013...

i shall continue to be contented & grateful for the little things in life.
with a new phone, new wallet & new organiser...i'm ready for 2012!

Best of 2011: Music & Drama

2011-12-28T21:41:00.005+08:00

TOP 5 ENGLISH SONGS

1. Pumped Up Kicks (Foster The People)
2. Run The World (Beyonce)
3. 6 Foot 7 Foot (Lil Wayne)
4. How To Love (Lil Wayne)
5. Something In The Water (Brooke Fraser)

TOP 5 CHINESE SONGS

1. 愚人的国度（孙燕姿）
2. 转身之后（Bii）
3. 你好吗（周杰伦）
4. 那些年（胡夏）
5. 因为爱情（陈奕迅/王菲）

最好看的偶像剧：我可能不会爱你

最好看的韩剧：笑吧，东海

最好看的港剧： no comments. 因为今年没怎么在看港剧.

Best of 2011: K-pop

2011-12-28T13:10:00.005+08:00

I was officially converted into a K-pop fan this year.
watching all those weekly chart shows (Mnet, Inkigayo, Music Bank) while rooting for my favs.

at first it was the crazily catchy infectious dance beats.
then came the goosebumps-inducing moving ballads.

dun understand the lyrics? never mind.
all that matters is the melody.

TOP 5 DANCE TRACKS

1. The Boys (SNSD)
2. Roly Poly (T-ARA)
3. I Am The Best (2NE1)
4. Bubble Pop (HYUNA)
5. Message (MY NAME)

TOP 5 BALLADS

1. A Long Day (TIM)
2. Don't Say Goodbye (DAVICHI)
3. Hello (HUH GAK)
4. I Told You I Wanna Die (HUH GAK)
5. Even Now (SUNG SI KYUNG)

Best of 2011: Movies

2011-12-19T12:08:00.005+08:00

here comes my first year-end list of favourites!

according to my IMDb reviews, i din watch many movies this year (as compared to previous years). was i that busy? hmm.

but anyway, out of those i watched, here's my top 10 (in order of preference):

1. A Separation (Iran)
the Iranians did it again. drama at its best. cuden pick out a single flaw. be sure to catch it in cinemas Feb 2012.

2. The Artist (France)
a silent film which has more heart and depth than all the blockbusters out there.

3. Incendies (Canada)
one of the most shocking endings EVER. the thought of it still gives me goosebumps.

4. Beginners (USA)
quirky feel-good dramedy. kinda like 500 Days Of Summer, but more inspirational.

5. 那些年，我们一起追的女孩 (Taiwan)
expected it to be 青春偶像剧-like, but it was far more than that. lives up to its hype.

6. Rio
7. 127 Hours
8. The Ides Of March
9. Four Lions
10. 让子弹飞

next list: Korean Songs.

it's the end...

2011-12-02T12:00:00.002+08:00

of exams.
of another semester.
of another year.

but it's only the beginning...
of holidays.
of xmas shows.
of FYP.

shall keep myself fully occupied until results day.
or else i will think too much n put myself in a bad mood.

who's afraid of being lonely

2011-11-15T20:18:00.005+08:00

apparently everyone. including my dad.
now that my mum is so actively involved in her line dance sessions (no longer confined within the household), my dad is often "home alone".
even when i'm at home, he's still "home alone", cos i stay in my room all the time.

yes yes yes i know...as a filial son, i should keep him company.
but when he watches movies or drama serials, he needs to talk. like a commentator.
but i need absolute silence so that i can concentrate. like i'm in a cinema.
see the problem?

sometimes he refrains from talking, so that i can enjoy my silence, but 他忍得很辛苦。
sometimes i tolerate his talking，结果他看得很过瘾，我看得很辛苦。
迁就是不会有幸福的。
幸福也只有一方幸福，没有两全其美的办法。

actually my mum hates my dad's commentating too...but she can tolerate.
no wonder they are husband and wife.

to say that "i enjoy being alone" will make me sound like a loner, but i'm not.
you may think loners are pathetic, but they may be enjoying life more than you do.
becos in a crowd, someone always has to COMPROMISE.
even if that someone is not me, i would feel bad for that someone.

how nice if you can always do things your way huh?
you know what? you can.
it's a choice.

PS: 看了《那些年我们一起追的女孩》，没错，很sweet。
不过，看到大家在facebook的观后感，很纳闷。
怎么好像全世界都经历过那段“年少轻狂”的岁月，就只有我没有？
不是遗憾。我自认我的人生到目前为止，没什么值得遗憾的事。
也不是羡慕。拜托，我以前最讨厌那种臭男生了。
就只是...纳闷。

last year of youth

2011-10-26T20:26:00.004+08:00

"According to the United Nations definition, 'youth' constitutes people between ages 15-24.”

不会吧。
再过一年，我就失去庆祝Youth's Day的资格了...

好吧~ 接下来这一年要充实地过！
为youth时代划下完美的句点！
从25岁开始，做个称职的working adult！

ka-ching!

2011-10-09T21:34:00.002+08:00

that's the sound of $$$.

latest lobang: my hall decided to revive the "hall production tradition" (hello what tradition?! our first & last one was in 2009! oh well.) basically their actors & comm members have no drama background, so they wanna "employ" me at $40/hr to share some acting tips!

i once thought of teaching drama to kids...but uni students? hmmmm we'll see how it goes. i'll just impart them what i have learnt from my 5 NIE drama mods. hopefully they dun see me as a hyper enthu drama queen (but actually i dun mind if they do) MUAHAHAHA~

damn

2011-09-22T22:27:00.002+08:00

i'm damn bitchy.
if there was a karma bank, i'd be damn rich.
but i dun give a damn.
i just can't shut my damn mouth.
goddamnit.

DJ ROY's discoveries

2011-09-07T20:44:00.004+08:00

my TOP 4 fav albums of 2011...so far.
go *cough*download*cough* these albums!

Brooke Fraser "Flags" (genre: pop/folk)

Mat Kearney "Young Love" (genre: pop/rock)

Zee Avi "Ghostbird" (genre: pop/folk/jazz)

Dev "The Night The Sun Came Up" (genre: electronic/R&B)

thanks to them, the % of clubbing tracks in my MP3 has decreased.
but anyway, for those in need of some addictive booty-shaking sick beats, check this out:
David Guetta/Dev/Timbaland "I Just Wanna F".

yeah in case u were wondering...i'm listening to it right now.
shaking and blogging at the same time.

and semester 7 has begun...

2011-08-20T17:41:00.004+08:00

like a smooth-sailing ship on peaceful waters.
no tsunami please!
cos i'll be studying that for ES8001 Natural Hazards & Society.
hi Mr Geography, long time no see.
let's be friends again after like...10 years?

and i have to say...ASIAN FILMS ARE FASCINATING.
which is why i can't decide between CS8200 Asian Horror Film and FIL230 Asian Film History.
no matter which one i choose, i'm gonna have late dinner and reach home at 10+.
which i totally dun mind.
cos ASIAN FILMS ARE FASCINATING.

how i wish i can change my remaining MPEs into UEs.
for those scratching your heads:
MPE = Major Prescribed Electives (only from 中文系)
UE = Unrestricted Electives (anything in the whole wide world)

it's like...letting me choose only 1 piece of chocolate from a chocolate factory.
and choose the rest from a basket of vegetables.

THE FINAL LAP

2011-08-03T21:36:00.003+08:00

okie August is finally here!
all pumped up for the new semester!

i guess all the convo pics on facebook serves as a great motivation...and reminder.
motivation: that will be me in one year's time.
reminder: can't afford to fall below 4.00.

i wanna graduate with a big fat smile on my face.
ermmm okie forget about fat.
big smile will do =D

NEW SEMESTER RESOLUTIONS:

1) look forward to school every day and enjoy the learning process instead of fixating on grades (since i have the right to choose the courses i'm interested in).

2) give myself a break on Mondays and Fridays by doing school roadshows (and earning extra pocket money heehee).

3) work on my FYP consistently so that there won't be a mad rush for deadlines (although i doubt my prof will even care to set any deadlines).

4) only blog about happy stuff.

$$$ MOOLAH $$$

2011-07-21T20:22:00.004+08:00

it's weird.
i dun feel the pain when i spend $$$ like crazy in June.
but when i look at my passbook now, i feel like slapping myself.

must be the post-exam-crazy-shopping-relief-syndrome.
and the post-exam-i-deserve-to-go-out-everyday-disorder.

赚钱是为了花钱。
but i have been consciously watching my expenditure in July.
even though i'm enjoying my most well-paid holiday job ever.
seriously, damn well-paid.
i should have charged the HSS and HALL4 people for all those hosting jobs.

i should pamper myself more.
buy t-shirts which cost more than $20 (yes TOPMAN how come ur t-shirts still cost $30+ during GSS), and shoes which cost more than $40 (enough of FASTER bugis street shoes).
no no no.
save it for a better future (hoho sounds so ambitious).

whatever.
I NEED A PAIR OF NEW SHOES.

朋友啊

2011-07-07T22:30:00.004+08:00

人，闲来无事的时候，真的会胡思乱想。
今晚是第一次有这种体会。

facebook上有600个朋友，天天出现在news feed的也不过就那几十个。
600个里面，应该有过半是hi-bye friends。
有些甚至连hi-bye都不是，只不过是朋友的朋友，或一起上过一门课/一起合作过一个event罢了。

有些更惨，是小学同学，可是没有同班过。
真的真的记不起你是谁，甚至十年来没有跟你说过话，你却忽然来add我...
我对你的生活没兴趣，可是又不好意思拒绝你的friend request，叫我情何以堪。

所以，我狠下心delete了100多人。
跟他们实在没有任何值得珍藏的共同回忆。
在街上遇到应该会尴尬到极点。
没关系，他们应该不会发现我已经delete了他们。

有些，真的好久好久好久没联络。
现在忽然联络，可能会很冒昧，对方也可能会觉得我意图不轨（卖保险/房子之类的）。
可是，因为太久没联络，他们的近况也不再出现在我的news feed上了。
直到今晚，我一个一个“登门拜访”，才发现大家都不一样了。

模样/发型/打扮不同当然不在话下。
有些已经在加拿大/澳洲/英国发展得不错，似乎没有回来的打算。
有些从事着意想不到的工作，惊喜之余也替他们感到欣慰。
有些已经结婚了（还好还没生孩子）。

如果有一天，身边的朋友都结婚了...
放心，我会很识相的，不会用“重色轻友”对你死缠烂打。
毕竟每个人has different priorities in life。

如果你还不介意跟我吃饭，我当然乐意随时奉陪。
可是如果就那样渐渐疏远了，也只能这样了。
好好过你的人生吧！

这不是emo，是感慨...而且还是老人的那种。

perfect

2011-07-03T00:56:00.004+08:00

i'm kinda living the perfect life right now.
not too busy, not too bored.
meeting awesome people, doing awesome stuff.
waking up every morning with a smile.

not forgetting the occasional meetups.
where i indulge in sinful food without feeling guilty.
and share the joys of freelance hosting.

locating my hosting assignments has made me more familiar with street directories and bus services.
discovered some street names which i never knew existed.
my sense of direction is not THAT bad after all.

this may sound unbelievable (for those who know me well).
but...making kids smile actually makes me smile too.
yes u heard me.
but still i'd rather adopt a 13-year-old kid.
MUAHAHAHAHA.

freelance

2011-06-20T22:43:00.002+08:00

i'm proud to call myself a freelance _____.

以前觉得freelance很cool, 不用每天朝九晚五，工作想接就接，想放假就放假~
是这样没错啦。不过也要有lobang，才有固定的收入。
所以我觉得我以后应该不会从事freelance。

主持儿童节目真的有。够。累。
虽然我平时已经在装可爱，可是竟。然。还。不。够。
连我自己看playback，都有点想揍人。
说不定那些小孩也想揍我。呵呵呵~

忽然发现这三年来，从来没有人给我主持上的意见/评语。
不管是中文系/HSS/Hall4的活动，都是受人所托才帮忙主持。
活动结束后，负责人总是连声道谢/夸奖，害我都有点不好意思。

难得专业的events company肯提点我，真是感激不尽。
从来没有人告诉过我“you can be more spontaneous”。
好，就从这点开始精益求精！

4.00

2011-06-09T01:57:00.003+08:00

i have to blog this like RIGHT NOW.

finally i get to sleep in peace.
well done rockeroosteroy.

maintain like that and i'll graduate with a second upper.
4.XX
XX doesn't matter anymore~
jiayou jiayou jiayou!

阿宅

2011-05-22T18:52:00.002+08:00

唉。
考完不到九天，又开始闷了。

周围的人都在工作，只有晚上才有空。
把晚上的行程都排满，还剩无所事事的白天。
每天关在房里，把窗帘拉起来，故意远离白天...
也不是啦，只是阳光照进来，很热，很烦。

早上11点醒来，离晚上还剩7小时。
扣掉吃早餐/吃午餐/睡午觉，还剩4小时。
4小时，用电脑/看电视/看电影。

超写意的生活，大家应该都很羡慕，可是久了也会乏味。
更何况还要过上77天（从今天开始算）。

在家其实也不是没事做。
只是懒得开始做。
F。Y。P
也对啦，这77天先做一点，开学后日子也会好过一点。
呵呵~难得乐观。

该死的202

2011-05-10T20:03:00.002+08:00

今天的HC202打击太大。
回到家哭了一场。
觉得自己好笨。

最重要的一门课，担心了四个月，还是落到这个下场。
虽然已做好最坏的打算，还是希望会有奇迹出现。

真的。及格就好。
C也没关系。
能做FYP就好。

老爸老妈说及格就好，能毕业就好。
CGPA 2.00 就可以戴方帽了，我说。
那就够了，他们说。最重要是活得开心。

什么时候开始那么执著，那么看不开，我也不晓得。
什么时候变得那么怕输，那么功利，我也忘记了。
就是不想对不起自己。
总觉得自己可以做得更更更好。

这个礼拜五的HC302，要把失去的分数给抢回来。
HC202的不足，就用其它四门课来补。
潘老师，请手下留情。

stupid blogwalkers

2011-04-23T01:44:00.003+08:00

u have been warned.
if u dunno me & i dunno u, DUN leave a message on my tagboard asking me to visit ur blog or whatever shit.
who cares if u r just dropping by (since i dun even know u in e first place).
i dun need u to comment on how nice my blog layout is, or how interesting my content is.
if u can only come up with such shallow comments, might as well dun comment.

maybe it's some "blogger tradition" to visit strangers' blogs and promote ur own blog.
but count me out of ur stupid routine.
u have chose e wrong blog to comment on.
i want my tagboard to be squeaky clean with only comments from my friends.
SO IF U R NOT MY FRIEND, GET THE HELL OUT BEFORE I REALLY VISIT UR BLOG AND POST NASTY COMMENTS ON UR TAGBOARD.

撑

2011-04-06T21:07:00.002+08:00

这个学期从头撑到尾。
肚皮都要撑破了。
撑破之后，墨水会流出来。
然后，流到考卷上。

多37天。
希望墨水不会干掉。

halfway thru

2011-03-22T22:10:00.002+08:00

not gonna blog about recess week.
it went by in a flash.
i dun even remember having a social life.

first half of the semester: no reports, no presentations, no quizzes.
and yet already so emo.
how am i gonna survive April?
die of depression, maybe.

god bless japan

2011-03-12T22:41:00.003+08:00

天佑日本。

嗯，听起来有点反讽。
把日本害成这样的不是“天”灾吗？
现在连天都不能指望了。

靠人吧！
人定胜天。
至少新闻画面里的日本民众看起来很坚强。
请继续坚强。

Japan does not deserve this.
No country deserves this.

刘智澎的相处之道

2011-03-06T11:49:00.003+08:00

我在台湾买的《蔡康永的说话之道》真的很抢手，很多人向我借，其实我自己还没读完，哈哈哈~
学会了说话的艺术，还要懂得用，一直用也不见得是好事...

如果你和我单独搭过MRT，你会发现我嘴巴一直没停过。
我一直觉得，只有很熟的朋友才会有源源不绝的话题（不是硬找话题聊的那种）。
我每个礼拜都会有三个像这样的朋友，令回家的路程看起来不再那么遥远。
真的，什么都可以聊，时间也过得很快。

那天晚上，看完舞台剧，和一个认识了十年的朋友，一起搭了30分钟的MRT。
可能因为读书/工作了一整天，我们都有些疲倦了。
可是几个月才见一次面，总觉得如果不聊些什么，好像有点生疏/尴尬。
所以我还是不厌其烦地聊起彼此的近况（只希望她不会觉得太闷）。

必须承认，后来有点硬找话题聊的感觉。
也不是不熟，只是...她一直在听，只是在听。
然后她终于开口了，语气很温和，像个长辈似的：
“可能你当主持当惯了，无法忍受dead air，哎呀我们都那么熟了，偶尔的沉默是OK的。”
正中死穴。窘死了。

也对，情侣/夫妻也不会一直聊天。
我自己一个人的时候，也绝对不会自言自语。（虽然说blogging也算是自言自语）
纯粹不想让对方觉得闷/尴尬/冷落罢了。
没想过说话会是一种疲劳轰炸。

I can be at ease with myself, but not with someone around.
这不是我的职业病，是个性的关系，是我的相处之道。

DISCLAIMER: this is a reflective post, not an emo post.

back (on track)!

2011-03-01T17:09:00.003+08:00

okie i better post something before my joyous mood disappears (hope it won't)...
since i promised this post would be a happy one!

reasons to be happy:

1) today is Tue! the day when i end classes at 10.30, head home for home-cooked lunch, and take a long afternoon nap (since i dun have to sleep early n wake up early on Wed)!

but i wasn't THAT happy for the past few Tues, so it must be reasons (2) & (3)!

2) i got paid for doing something i enjoy! Valenwine paid me $50 for 2 hrs of emcee-ing hoho~ okie the pay was a bonus, wasn't expecting much since the committee was on a tight budget. but this was my first hosting gig since...OCT 2009! it feels good to hold a mic n just talk talk talk...n get paid. MUAHAHAHAHA!

3) more n more drama in my life. in a good way! haha dunno why there are so many theatre productions in Mar...but i have bought all the tickets! (dun remind me about the cost, i'm using my angbao money) watching with different groups of friends, gossiping before/after the show over dinner/supper, laughing so loud n attracting so much attention...i guess we simply enjoy the attention HAHA!

i'm finally getting my life back (on track)! YAY~

since when did i start ranting

2011-02-23T22:16:00.004+08:00

i've been ranting a lot.
it's unhealthy.
and it's taking a toll on me.
i miss the old me.

the first 2 months of 2011 have been full of disappointment.
and it's the suckiest feeling ever.

i'm sick of being a leader.
but i hate being a follower.
i'll just live alone in my happy world.

i deserve to be happier.
it's time to heck-care some stuff.
screw obligations.

i have booked a consultation session with Royston Liu Zhipeng.
i believe he can cure me.

i promise my next post will be less emo.
okie at least i'll try.
because promises are worthless nowadays.

trapped in a rat race

2011-02-16T20:58:00.003+08:00

总觉得这个学期一直要做自己不擅长的东西。
可能别人也不擅长，可是至少they look like they're coping well。
周围厉害的人很多，要突围真的很难。
知道自己比别人弱，就要加倍的努力。
可是努力久了还是会累。
累了又不能停下来休息。
没关系，可以练stamina。
再跑多三个月就可以了。

2 weeks have passed...

2011-02-12T11:51:00.002+08:00

可是在学校就是开心不起来。
明明就很期待开学，可是每天出门都有心不甘情不愿的感觉。
可能因为上个学期太好玩了，这个学期显得很“黯淡”。
原来...上自己喜欢的课是非常重要的。

是学到很多新的东西啦。
可是...不是我喜欢的东西。
所以连复习都懒懒的。（懒懒不是粗话，是叠词）
所有书面/口头报告的期限已经公布。
我四月中旬应该会忙死。
死不了就去考试吧...反正才考三天。

这个学期的戏剧课都没怎么在演。
要读很多，写很多，讲很多。
班上有实力的人也很多。
可是我的精力没有很多。

跟年龄毫无关系。
是心态的问题。
还在为上个学期的成绩耿耿于怀。
这个学期从一开始就很用功，可是还是力不从心。
反向思考：这个学期可能会考得比较好，因为都没有在玩。

人要做自己喜欢/想做的事才会开心。
应酬别人/履行义务只会越来越累。
尤其当你越来越有孤军作战的感觉。
很没有意义。

Semester No.6

2011-01-27T20:04:00.005+08:00

okie back on my feet.
all courses finalised.
same combo as last sem: 3 chinese 2 drama.

potential to do well for last sem: 80% (results proved me wrong)
potential to do well for this sem: 40% (shit)

the 3 chinese mods this sem look like killers.
HC202, a core mod which requires logic and common sense, something i have always lacked (and will continue to lack). exam requires on-the-spot thinking. ewww.
HC302, a core mod on philosophy. zero interest. zero background. ewww.
HC341, china city n culture. taking it for the sake of movies. NICE.
only 3 papers at the end of this sem. NICEEE.
3-day interval between each paper. NICEEEEE.

shall complete my drama minor this sem!
directing on Wed, southeast asian theatre on Fri.
weekly reflection journals are back to haunt me. YAY.
gonna have more fun with some of last sem's drama classmates. YAYYY.
counting on drama to pull up my GPA again. YAYYYYY.

不应该是这样的

2011-01-18T12:40:00.002+08:00

worst exam results ever.
totally din see that coming.
totally din justify how hard i worked my ass off for last sem.

and i thought year 2 sem 1 was bad enough.
year 3 sem 1 totally hit rock-bottom.
to think that it was my most fav sem of all.

i guess if i din go for exchange, and stayed in NTU to clear those 18 AUs, my GPA would have dropped even further huh.
is this a curse or what?
everytime i have expectations, it's gonna fall short.
so i'm not supposed to feel good/confident/assured about anything now?
so i'm supposed to perform badly first, worry that i'm gonna fail, then a miracle will appear?

dun tell me it's okie.
it's SO not okie.

dun tell me to try harder next sem.
i already tried so hard last sem.

我不服气，我不甘心，可是我什么都不能做。
不应该是这样的。
努力就应该要有回报，不然努力来干嘛？
我到底是哪里做得不够？
i did everything in advance. reports, presentations, exam revision.
seriously what else do i have to do before u give me that A again?

"GPA is just three numbers. A grade is just an alphabet."
apparently it isn't so.
我真的比任何事情都还要在乎这几个笨数字。
注定要被它们折磨个半死。

我还能做什么。谁可以告诉我。

first post of 2011

2011-01-12T23:25:00.002+08:00

hmmm...
my first post came so late cos i was searching for a suitable theme or topic to start off the year.
so have i found one?
erm, no.

i guess staying at home doesn't inspire me much.
i NEED my school life back. (yeah sounds crazy but it's true)

i think short breaks are enough for me to re-charge my ENERGISER RABBIT battery.
in two weeks time, NTU will see me hopping around again.
*boing boing boing*

post no.50: best films of 2010

2010-12-29T16:01:00.004+08:00

50 blog posts a year! *applause*

this shall be my concluding post for 2010.
as we all know, nothing interest me more than MOVIES.
in fact, ever since exams ended, i've been watching 3 movies per day~

i hereby proclaim 2010 the year of animation! *applause again*

Inception
Toy Story 3
Confessions (Japan)
志明与春娇 (HongKong)
大叔 (Korea)
The Secret In Their Eyes (Argentina)
The Ghost Writer
Rapunzel
Despicable Me
The Social Network

*applause until my next post*

all i want for xmas...

2010-12-24T16:13:00.004+08:00

is to see snow in singapore (dun ask me go SNOW CITY).
santa will grant my wish since i have been SUCH a good boy.
(who am i kidding? erm i'm referring to e "santa" part, not e "good boy" part)

31 days to new semester...说长不长，说短不短~
which is why i've decided not to work!
strictly speaking there's only like...15 working days?
(provided that i start work in Jan...who am i kidding again?)

to-do list for these 31 days:
sanguosha sessions with GGB
mahjong session with binbin, janjan, lynnlynn
drama class outings
early spring cleaning (though my room is like SO tidy, e drawers are damn messy)
shopping for clothes/berms/shoes (then spring cleaning for my wardrobe)
watch all e award-winning movies n drama serials in my laptop
......
in short, ENJOY LIFE.

it doesn't feel like december

2010-12-20T21:04:00.002+08:00

because:

1) the wind can be quite chilly even on a sunny morning. singapore does have winter after all~

2) two-thirds of december is spent on revision & exams. and i actually studied A LOT for open-book exams~

i better maximise the final 11 days of 2010. end it with a BANG-BA-BOOM!
on a side note, 2010 is/was a good year for me =D

PS: results will be released (only) 26 days after NTU's last paper.
poor profs. we mug like crazy, they mark like crazy.

too much time for revision?

2010-12-03T00:47:00.002+08:00

hoho 1 Dec was my last day of sch so...I have 2 freaking weeks for revision.

BUT the more time u have on ur hands, u tend to procrastinate.
which is why...I din really do much today.

luckily not much memory work for this sem!
open-book exam is not such a bad thing after all?

esp when i took my exam timetable into consideration when registering for courses.
14, 16, 18, 20 Dec...woohoo nicely spaced out!

like i said, i'm NEVER gonna put myself thru the torture of 2 papers in 1 day.
a paper a day is enough to deplete my battery from 100 to 0.

what would life be like without drama?

2010-11-21T19:08:00.002+08:00

Fri drama classes have officially ended.
Thu drama classes only 1 week left.

now that there's no more daily rehearsals before/after class, I should be happy.
but still feeling a little empty.
okie maybe more than a little.

my drama friends have been posting facebook statuses abt withdrawal symptoms (looks like the girls are more affected haha).
will miss the times we spam comments on each other's photos and walls (and of course, the flooding email notifications).
i knew it right from the first lesson that this is gonna be an awesome semester full of drama.
it turns out to be more awesome than i thought.

it is AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEE.

busy/tired/busy/tired/busy/tired

2010-11-01T11:47:00.002+08:00

my life is full of drama.
Mon Tue Wed rehearsals, Thu Fri drama classes.
too much drama, in fact.

i think my free day (Mon) is officially gone for the rest of e semester.
despite completing assignments WAY before e deadlines, i still feel stressed.
doesn't help that my Fri drama instructor is such a control freak.

HELLO, DRAMA IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE ABOUT RULES & REGULATIONS & ADMIN INSTRUCTIONS!!!
dun teach drama lah u...go work in a govt organisation.

first day of Nov, and i'm oredi looking forward to the last day of Nov.
oh, wait. no. NOOOO. 6 weeks to exams.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BEST RECESS WEEK EVER

2010-10-25T13:39:00.003+08:00

I THINK I JUST HAD THE BEST WEEK OF 2010!!! =D

celebrated at places i've been wanting to visit ie. Porn's, Egg3 Cafe, Marche~
for more info, pls refer to facebook album "ROOSTER DAY 2010" haha!

shoutout to GGB & SPATS: yeah continue giving me makeover every year!!! i dun even wanna look at my past bday photos liao HOHOHO it makes me cringe...

special mention: for my army frens gathering on Fri nite, my two fav bosses came!!! WHAT A PLEASANT SURPRISE LAH (haven't seen them in like...3 years?! they still damn yandao)
was treated to dinner, late-nite KTV and given a ride home~
I LOVE GENEROUS WORKING ADULTS HAHAHA

now that heaven week is officially over, hell week is coming soon...
i'm ready. BRING IT ON.

recess week = rooster week

2010-10-18T11:36:00.002+08:00

HOHO this year i'm fortunate enough to have my bday during recess week WOOHOO~
will be out everyday from Wed to Sun MUAHAHAHA!!!
shall complete all my assignments before Tue...

on a side note: drama class rehearsalS have commenced...SO EXCITING OMGGGGG
i love school.

stay home kid

2010-10-06T22:07:00.002+08:00

I actually look forward to going home after school.
Despite the 1.5 hrs journey which I have somehow gotten used to.
Morning rides: sleep, read MyPaper (I really dun like Today)
Evening rides: read I-Weekly/readings, watch drama on laptop

Sleeping/waking early makes me less prone to pon lessons too (HURRAY)!
Dun need to crack my brains over dinner (if i settle myself, surely eat fast food)!

Kinda feel like my most hardworking semester so far...GO GO GO!!!

PS: recess week must NOT be hell week for me...it's bday week YEAHYEAHYEAHYEAHYEAH~

GLEE vs MODERN FAMILY

2010-09-22T23:07:00.002+08:00

the two TV series i've been raving about all year.

after months of waiting, SEASON 2 IS BACK!!! premiere in the SAME WEEK somemore!!!
this battle is never gonna end huh?

GLEE won the Golden Globe, MODERN FAMILY won the Emmy (seems like a tie)...
i got a feeling they are battling for viewership ratings now.

may the best show wins!

PS: if i'm a voter at the awards, and i die die must vote cannot abstain, i think i'll vote for...MODERN FAMILY. (despite the lack of eye candy, it never fails to make me laugh in an unglam manner)

potentially my fav semester so far...

2010-09-09T17:56:00.002+08:00

i LOVE my classes.
what a great start after my Taiwan exchange.

will i excel? no guarantee.
will i enjoy? HELL YEAH!

had my first CDP434 drama class today.
all it took was 3 hrs for 12 of us to click so well!!!
搞戏剧的就是搞戏剧的，一拍即合.

and i have a new Jap friend. DAMN CUTE LAH!!!

i'll be so looking forward to Thursdays n Fridays now~

AY10/11

2010-08-31T22:29:00.002+08:00

new academic year. first lesson today.
wah the last time i had lessons in NTU was like...10 months ago.

oh wow i'm a year 3 student now!
oh shit i'm a year 3 student now.

happy workaholic

2010-08-21T11:55:00.002+08:00

so glad i signed up to be a student buddy with NTU.
amazing week so far.
i spend time meaningfully, i get paid, i make new friends (from all around the world), i promote my country, i entertain people, and my supervisor thinks highly of me.
what more could i ask for?
actually i dun mind working all day all nite...

but when i'm not working, that shitty feeling is back again.
that feeling i desperately wanted to get rid of by fleeing to taiwan in Feb.
that bottleneck phase when i can't seem to enjoy things to the fullest.

staying in hall alone for the past few nites actually made me very happy.
no need for unnecessary human contact and formalities.
just me and my laptop. and i can sleep at any time i want.

dun i have stories to share? of course i do.
but only with people of the right frequency.
why share when i know i can't get the response i'm expecting?
sometimes, keeping things to urself is even better. really.

me is youtuber

2010-08-14T16:17:00.002+08:00

hmm i spent one whole afternoon on YOUTUBE.
so it's possible...
blame all those links on the sidebar!
link me from one vid to another & another & another (x100)~

now my fav is NIGAHIGA. bye bye annoying orange!

ROTTEN

2010-08-06T13:37:00.003+08:00

腐烂中~
应该每天都出去吹吹风，晒晒太阳。

可是又懒得出去。
出去又懒得回来。
在家又懒得走动。

真的闲不下来/不能闲下来。
闲太久会变懒/烂。

下个礼拜开始做工赚钱咯！
做三个礼拜也好。
赚个几百元也好。

不要待在家就好。

WTF films

2010-07-26T23:11:00.002+08:00

I have been spamming my laptop with loads of movies these days.

A normal stay-at-home day for me would be something like this: late breakfast > movie > late lunch > movie > afternoon nap > dinner > movie > supper > drama serial.

Just within 3 weeks, I encountered 3 films which made me go "WTF JUST HAPPENED" when it ended. I swear I would have left halfway if I was watching in a theatre.

Similarity: Those award-winning arthouse films had random events which made me lost track totally (despite paying full attention). I had to rely heavily on film reviews/analysis to get a slightest clue. Well, maybe I'm just not sophisticated enough. Or maybe the director infused too much of his own style and didn't spare a thought for his audience.

Having said that, GOOD FOR U if u understood these 3 films on first viewing:

蔡明亮《脸》
The Coen Brothers 《A Serious Man》
David Lynch 《Mulholland Drive》

INCEPTION

2010-07-21T00:30:00.002+08:00

i've waited for this film for MONTHS.
it was sure worth the wait.

seriously, if u're gonna watch only one film in your entire life, this is IT.

dun even ask about the plot. experience it for yourself.
i simply entered the theatre with an open mind, knowing nothing could go wrong with Christopher Nolan/Leonardo Dicaprio/Joseph Gordon Levitt/Ellen Page/Marion Cotillard/Ken Watanabe/Cillian Murphy. (award-winning is really a credential, just like how branded goods never fail to disappoint!)

my eyes were glued to every single frame on the screen for 140 mins.
and i'm gonna watch it again.

there are soO0 many interpretations about this film, it can almost be a research topic on its own! i RESPECT films that require a thinking audience.

B.O.R.E.D

2010-07-09T21:46:00.002+08:00

This is my 9th day back in S'pore.
And I'm already so damn bored.

Some say I should have stayed in Taiwan a little longer.
No point. I'm already bored of Taiwan. HA!

I guess I'm just easily bored of STUFF in general.

One more month before I start my one-month job at NTU. (Yes, NTU!)
Receiving exchange students and helping them settle down.
I simply love exchange students (and being one), dun I?

In the meantime, I REALLLLY wanted to learn something.
First on my list was guitar.
But after doing some googling, I gave up the idea IMMEDIATELY.
Supposedly it's NORMAL to have sore fingertips with calluses and hardened skin after playing guitar.
OMG.
I can't even bear to get myself cut/bruised/scarred.
I guess I still love my skin more than anything.

HAIZ i'm kinda disappointed by my lack of motivation/determination/talent.

B.A.C.K

2010-07-02T01:40:00.002+08:00

飞机快要降落的时候，忽然有点鼻酸，眼睛湿湿的。
不是因为可以回家而喜极而泣。
因为自己真的独立了而有些感动。
因为舍不得在台湾的朋友（毕竟不知道什么时候会再见面）。
因为四个月竟然就这样结束了。

why i prefer my room in singapore

2010-06-23T02:17:00.003+08:00

dun be misled by the title.
i'm not back YET.

so there are still a few things i dislike abt my tsinghua hostel:

1. mosquito-infested common bathroom (every nite when i turn on the shower, more than 3 mosquitoes will appear and somehow I always fail to kill them)

2. sucky phone signal (every time i wanna make/answer a phone call, i have to step out of my room and walk a distance OR stick my head out of the window like an idiot)

3. my neighbours (do they HAVE TO slam their doors behind them every time they leave/enter the room?! does it give them some kind of pleasure which i simply can't understand?! and do they HAVE TO speak so loudly in their native language at 3AM?!)

4. my roomie (well~ what else can i say...)

ONE MORE WEEK.
although i'm not really THAT eager to return home now.
i'm gonna miss my TW/HK/china/indonesia/france/paraguay friends here~

学学小蜜蜂，别做懒惰虫

2010-06-19T03:13:00.002+08:00

唉，在台湾真的养尊处优惯了...
现在只剩1个报告，2个考试，11天。
可是一点动力也没有。
好想继续slack下去...

我最高分的科目肯定会是戏剧创作和电视制作课。
可是都结束了...
只能期待考试结束后的庆功出游！

我就像一只懒惰虫，周围环绕着许多小蜜蜂...

19 days to home...

2010-06-11T03:25:00.002+08:00

Sorry if I haven't been updating my blog diligently.
I'm busy enjoying school life, finally.

The best is always saved for the last...WHY???
I was still counting down few days ago, but now I hope the clock stops.

I'm only starting to make frens NOW.
Well~ better late than never!

goal achieved

2010-06-03T23:10:00.002+08:00

那天晚上，和其他交换生聊起 “为什么会选择来台湾”，“想在台湾achieve什么”。
那么有深度又reflective的问题，很明显不是我问的。
或许是因为只剩一个月，大家开始look back。
有人“忽然间”发现自己一直在读书，现在才惊觉时间不多了，决定开始出去玩。
有人明明一直都在玩，可是觉得还没玩够。

没错，这里的“玩”，当然就是旅游，到台湾各县各市各乡开开眼界。
这时，我才忽然发现原来我来台湾不是为了旅游。
明明有很多地方还没去（不要被我的facebook albums骗了），可是也不会特别想去。

原来我一直往台北跑，看演唱会/签唱会/舞台剧/综艺节目录影。
对啊！追星没什么可耻的。
也不会因为少去了很多地方而觉得可惜。

被逼回答“想在台湾achieve什么”，原来我的答案独一无二。
除了上述的那些，就是想交很多很多朋友，所以才选了戏剧创作和电视制作，这些需要teamwork的课。
刚开始还有点失望，怎么那么难交朋友？大家自己来上课，上完课就走，也不一起吃饭聊天...
还好到了后期，如我所料，分组之后大家开始熟了，一起排戏/想剧本/拍片，发现跟台湾同学真的很click!

也好，在房间里待久了，才是虚度人生咧~
而且讨论到11点多根本不算迟，好不好？
你要我那么早回去干嘛？陪你听交响乐/看历史小说啊？
CHEY!

出走的勇气

2010-05-29T23:53:00.003+08:00

今晚出席了一个短片影展《跟着镜头去旅行》，两部作品都是台湾艺术大学电影系女生的FYP。

〈游幕民族〉：一个女生为了追求电影梦，游遍了世界，除了有机会出席各大国际影展/追星，也结交了各地爱好电影的学生。

〈那个夏天〉：一个女生几年前去了西藏/新疆背包旅行，拍了许多照片。几年后，她决定重返故地，寻找照片中的人们，亲手把照片交给他们。

感觉上，〈那个夏天〉比较感人，也确实拍得比较好。
不过，映后座谈却是〈游幕民族〉导演的一番分享，令我开始反省。

她说自己在家人朋友当中都是被宠的，所以有些任性/自我，常常take things for granted。
她觉得自己需要“出走”，到一个没有靠山的地方，到一个没有人认识自己的地方。
一走就走了六个月，爱上了一个人旅行，每当觉得孤单，就继续向前走。
一路上帮助她的陌生人，令她觉得世界就是她朋友。
孤单的时候，自己就是自己的朋友。

唉，我觉得我没那个勇气。
虽然我的确很想“出走”。
我很想拥有她所拥有的那种纯粹的快乐/为了自己而活的快感。
可是我的意志不够坚定。
旅行，对我来说，不能充满未知。一切一定要安排得妥当，衣食住行都要舒适。
看吧！我还是继续当我的王子好了。

王子病

2010-05-24T14:21:00.004+08:00

yeah i'm a spoilt brat and i'm not ashamed to admit it.

when i stay overnight in other parts of taiwan, of cos there are economical accommodation everywhere (can be as cheap as S$20 per night)...BUT even if it's just for sleeping purposes, i need my room to be 单人房（最好是双人床）, 有冷气，有电视，有浴缸，枕头要厚，邻居不能吵...yep and i'm willing to pay for all these.

很多人告诉我： “只是睡一晚罢了/有四面墙壁和一张床就行了/出国旅行不要那么计较...” blah blah blah~

WHATEVER. 我要就是要。你管我。

PCK shd only be famous in Singapore

2010-05-14T00:04:00.004+08:00

when introducing Singapore to foreigners, do i really have to mention Singlish & Phua Chu Kang?

okie i won't deny that he brightened up my day a few times, but that's it. does the whole world need to know about his existence? apparently our Tourism Board thought so by arranging him to appear on Amazing Race in his signature attire (i know that was eons ago but...ARGH)!

so i'm in taiwan, and someone suggested screening clips of Phua Chu Kang Pte Ltd during International Week. SERIOUSLY?! how is it gonna boost our tourism trade, and how am i gonna intro him in chinese?! “他是一个家喻户晓的电视角色，穿着黄靴子的承包商，没文化的大老粗，动不动就抠鼻屎，可是我们都觉得他很好笑”...?!

i'm not ashamed of him or anything. okie maybe i am.

if u really wanna intro 经典电视角色，at least choose someone like 月娘（小娘惹） lah! can link to nyonya culture blah blah blah...

EmoNoMore

2010-05-08T23:49:00.002+08:00

so i deleted all the emo posts written in taiwan.
reasons being:

1) i'm not supposed to emo in taiwan.
2) this is not supposed to be an emo blog.

so between 10 Apr and 2 May, it's not that i din blog.
my loyal readers would have read those now-censored posts.

i shall TRY and enjoy the remaining 50 days to the fullest.

再见萤火虫

2010-05-02T01:40:00.003+08:00

the last time i saw fireflies was 15 yrs ago.
memorable, yes.
but not in a pleasant way.

1995, family vacation at Brisbane Australia.
visit to fireflies caves after dinner.
struggled to walk on slippery rocky paths while holding onto a torchlight.
we were told to beware of bats and leeches (in the end i saw both).

by the time we reached the caves, i was already frightened to tears.
totally no mood to see thousands of fireflies blinking at me.
can't wait to return to our hotel (or even Singapore).

15 yrs later, didn't know what to expect.
just hoping there wun be bats and leeches, or unknown noisy creatures.
and so, here came 北埔大湖村赏萤区.

7pm, sky wasn't pitch dark, but the fireflies were already out to play (and mate).
IT IS A SIGHT TO REMEMBER, EVEN WHEN I'M 75 YRS OLD.
grasslands covered with fireflies, blinking and lighting up the paths like guardian angels.
even the stars fade in comparison.

after a few failed attempts to capture them on camera, i simply gave up (not like other persistent folks who kept adjusting their camera settings and positions, but also to no avail).
BASKING IN THE MOMENT IS MORE IMPORTANT.

just being there makes me feel so blessed.

闷，就要找事做

2010-04-10T01:18:00.002+08:00

唉！当初选那些没考试/报告少的课，也是希望可以轻松点。。。
可是现在也未免太轻松了吧？！

怎么大家都有做不完的功课啊？！
算了算了，我自己出去玩，我不要当宅男！

星期一是我的free day，刚好下个星期三的课延到星期五了，所以我星期一/三都没课！
星期二才一堂课，也只是看电影罢了，就翘课一次吧！（回来了再下载来看）

所以。。。星期天到星期三，我会南下到高雄！
其他人都有课，so I'll be travelling alone。
那里的民宿都没有单人房，所以我订了一间位于爱河旁的蜜月双人房。
well done。（还好不会太贵）

PS: 朋友跟我说 “dun wait for things to happen, make them happen”。
听起来很像大道理，其实用在我身上 = “dun wait for ppl to jio u out, u can go and jio them。”
怕寂寞就要厚脸皮一点，人家给你面子就会陪你，哈哈！

I'M BACK!

2010-04-04T18:23:00.002+08:00

...back from 一场大病，back from 文化之行。
是的！我完全康复了，胃口也回来了，还跟清大的其他交换生去了一趟文化之行！
希望没有瘦太多，我要快点把营养补回来。

两天一夜的文化之行，去了集集/日月潭/清境农场。照片都在facebook 请自便，哈哈！
交了一些新朋友（印尼，印度，越南），还有一个来自Paraguay的帅哥！！！
PS: Paraguay is located near Brazil & Argentina.

后续：我没投诉那家害我上吐下泻的“六王子铁板烧”，可是今天经过那家店时，发现里面暗暗的，外面挂着“店铺出租”。
我猜是清大帮我报了仇，因为教官有问我是吃了哪一家的东西。哇塞，一家店因为我而倒闭...

生病了，好想家

2010-03-29T21:19:00.002+08:00

下午本来还在开玩笑：“我在新加坡每一个月就生病一次，来到这里变得好健康哦！”
话真的不能乱说。
晚上吃铁板烧就吃坏了肚子，上吐下泻不下十次，最后没有东西吐了还在吐。

还好有室友在。
宿舍的教官载我们到医院的时候，已经凌晨四点了。
迷迷糊糊中，觉得四肢无力，又酸又麻，打针时根本无法握紧拳头。
应该打了有四支针吧：抽血，打点滴，止吐针，止泻针。
其中两支还打在屁股上，OMG。

医生交代只能喝运动饮料，只能吃白粥/白面包。
原来运动饮料那么好喝。
我就靠运动饮料过活吧。

现在还有点晕晕的，走几步路就喘，肚子里好像刚发生海啸。
我还是去睡吧。
大家不用担心。

dinner with host professor n family!

2010-03-25T23:17:00.003+08:00

今晚太有口福了！

My host prof (yes he's an angmoh, but he teaches philosophy in very fluent Chinese) invited me and another 北大 girl (knew her at my movie class) to DIM SUM dinner at a 5-star hotel!!!

Too bad i din take photos...seems impolite u see...it's not as if i never see those food in singapore before haha! but the amount they ordered is like...OMG! 叉烧包，虾饺，烧卖，珍珠鸡，肠粉，小笼汤包，萝卜糕，桂花糕，苹果酥...i think i only listed half. HOHOHO!

Best part is...they lived in singapore for 2 years before while my host prof was teaching at NUS! haha so they were sharing some funny stories over dinner. IT WAS DAMN FUNNY!!! eg. His wife was trying to order Banana Smoothie (she said ber-neh-ner), but the drinks stall uncle din get it. So she pointed at the signboard and the uncle said: "OH we call it Banana Ice Blended (he said bah-nah-nah)". Worse still, he made her repeat after him.

WE ARE SO PROUD OF OUR SINGLISH CAN.

PS: their son Ethan has such beautiful eyes. 混血儿 ROCKS!!!

周末。在清大。

2010-03-21T17:57:00.002+08:00

大家都在忙着赶报告。
看来我选的课太轻松了。

觉得有点闷，却又不想自己一个人去台北。
我的ｒｏｏｍｉｅ每逢星期一都自己一个人去台北。

以前总觉得没人陪没关系，不用为了迁就别人而苦了自己。
在ｒｏｏｍｉｅ身上看到了以前的自己，却又觉得他ｌｏｎｅｒ。
自己一个人确实自由，可是来到台湾真的应该这样吗？

忽然发现我一直在积极结交新朋友，也不是怕寂寞，只是觉得不这样做有点浪费。
每次想主动认识别人，又怕自己过分热情／对方反应冷淡，有点难拿捏。
我真的不介意别人跟我“装熟”，因为混久了真的就会熟。

因为很少ｒｅａｄｉｎｇｓ，所以ｗｅｅｋｄａｙ　ｎｉｔｅｓ蛮闷的。
还好星期二有免费电影放映，星期三有世舞社　（是的，我在学跳舞），星期五有人陪我看《超级星光大道》。
其余的晚上就看那些下载的电影／连续剧。

周末的清大比我想象中热闹许多。
好像ｆａｍｉｌｙ　ｄａｙ一样，一家大小一起放风筝，ｒｏｌｌｅｒｓｋａｔｅ，打羽球。
可是，小孩子也太多了吧？　哈哈！

有点意外，我最爱的“胖达ｃａｆｅ”照常营业，而且有我最爱的德式布丁（平时都买不到）。
挑了靠窗的座位，看着一家大小共享天伦，以为又会想家，还好没有。
只是ｓｉｎｃｅｒｅｌｙ为他们感到开心。

这时，一群小孩子推门而入，本来觉得有点大煞风景。

孩子们：　（争先恐后）我要一杯果汁！
店主：　（装生气）我欠你们的哦？
孩子们：　（调皮）请给我一杯果汁，谢谢你帅哥！

还好有他们。

i'm afraid of dogs. STILL.

2010-03-15T15:48:00.000+08:00

Tsinghua is FULL of dogs.
If u saw my facebook photos, they are EVERYWHERE.

Lunchtime in the canteen can be such a horror, with dogs of all sizes and colours sniffing around tables and "patrolling" from seat to seat. After 3 weeks of this, I actually thought my dog-phobia has decreased, since I can now cope with them lying centimetres away from my chair.

I was wrong.

Just 10 mins ago, I was on my way back to hostel, merrily drinking my grape milk tea. Suddenly there was this poodle-like dog behind me. I thought maybe it will overtake me or detour in another direction sooner or later.

I was wrong AGAIN.

It followed me all the way back to my hostel gate. 而且一直紧跟在我脚边，好像我是它主人一样。 It looked up at me with that oh-so-innocent gaze. AH HA I think it wants my milk tea. So I left my cup on a grass patch, and ran towards my hostel block. As I turned around, I saw it circling my cup, as if figuring how to drink it. (okie so dogs dunno how to use straws)

Before I realised, it was heading my direction AGAIN.

So I ran across the corridor, scrambled for keys, unlocked the door (while the dog was running across the corridor, just like I did), entered my room, slammed the door, locked the door.

I hope it's not waiting outside my room now.

dreamt abt singapore

2010-03-06T01:21:00.002+08:00

最近几晚都梦到新加坡的人事物。
是潜意识里想家了吗？

在台湾12天了，吃得惯住得惯玩得惯。
醒着的时候真的一点想家的感觉也没有。

跟家人的weekly MSN conference好像也没了那个必要。
不会想念家人朋友的样子和声音吗？
暂时是不会。

可能只有在梦里才不会逼自己不去想家吧。
可是每次醒来时发现自己在台湾，是有点失落。
于是打起精神上课，结交新朋友，那种失落感又自动消失了。

和我一起飞过来的中文系同学，有些几乎天天MSN conference或打长途电话。
偶尔会有点羡慕他们对家人朋友的attachment。
我和家人分享近况，都用facebook inbox。
什么地震，寒流，旅游好去处...都用文字来分享。

万一回到新加坡，和家人朋友疏远了怎么办？
是有担心过这点。
总觉得如果真的这样，也是无可避免的事。

至少现在的我，还蛮独立的。
这是好事。我为自己感到骄傲。
一个人在外国念书五个月，好像也没想象中那么难。

过完这个周末，Week3就开始了。
到了Week18，就可以开始收拾行李了。

T.A.I.W.A.N

2010-02-26T15:34:00.001+08:00

As of now, I'm too lazy to blog...
So just make do with my facebook photos ba!!!

phonebook

2010-02-16T13:15:00.003+08:00

I was backing up my handphone data from my SIM card when I came across a few names.

Jeffrey, Dorothy, Regina.
I cracked my brains and I still cannot recall who are they or where I met them.

Perhaps I should have saved their contacts in greater detail eg. Shaun SPH, Johnson Hall4.
I usually do that only when I have multiple "Shaun"s or "Johnson"s in my phonebook.

So I thought my memory was failing me.
Or perhaps they were just acquaintances I met during my internship at SPH or SSC.
Ya know...those kind of "business partners"...exchanging contacts just for the sake of it...

Last resort: FACEBOOK friends.
Still, no Jeffrey/Dorothy/Regina.

I doubt I'll ever gonna recall them so I deleted their contacts.
Another form of "spring cleaning".

To play safe, I renamed all my contacts in detail eg. Joyce HP101, even though there's only ONE Joyce in my phonebook.
Who knows, I might have erased Joyce from my memory in three years time...
Nah just kidding Joyce.

gimme drama (korea)

2010-02-04T13:26:00.002+08:00

新加坡有“红星大奖”，台湾有“金钟奖”，香港有“TVB台庆大奖”，美国有“Emmys”。
直到去年年底，我才发现韩国也有电视圈的奖项，叫“大赏”（daesang）。

好奇地research了一下，原来是三大电视台（KBS，SBS，MBC）各颁各的奖，感觉比较像family affair，自己颁自己爽。

男女主角奖项不只一个哦！还分成：迷你剧，中篇剧，长篇剧，日日剧。
演得最好的可以拿到“最优秀男子/女子演技赏”。
演得最最最好的可以拿到“年度演技大赏”。

这样说来，拿到“日日剧优秀男子/女子演技赏”也没什么好开心/光荣的吧...
日日剧一播就是一百多集，一年能播几部啊？竞争对手少之又少吧...
如果你是一部日日剧的男/女主角，这个奖应该非你莫属了。

“年度演技大赏”其实好像也没什么。
如果某个电视台决定颁两个，还要和别人平分，哪来的荣耀啊？
说好了是BEST OF THE YEAR，颁给一个人就好了嘛，搞得好像在分猪肉。

Or maybe they are just trying to encourage their employees, to make sure no one goes home empty-handed.

Did I also mention they have all sorts of 人气奖？
十大人气明星奖（红星大奖anyone?），网友人气奖（男/女），人气新人奖（男/女），最佳情侣奖（竟然可以有四对得奖！）... ...

如果你在韩国娱乐圈混，一个奖都没拿过，you have a problem。

choosy fussy picky me

2010-01-30T13:36:00.004+08:00

YEAH if u haven't realised, i was trying to imitate Tata Young's "Sexy Naughty Bitchy Me"...

Since my mum has started baking her CNY goodies, that means i won't be enjoying home-cooked food for...two weeks.
Which also means my lunch & dinner will be some hawker food takeaway, since my dad dunno how to buy from Tampines One/Tampines Mall/Century Square.

It is only the THIRD day, and i'm already cracking my brains over the lack of food choices.
So i followed my dad to a hawker centre and a foodcourt he frequents the most.

ARGH. I'm not ashamed to admit this...but i AM a spoilt brat.

走了一圈，竟然没有一摊看得上眼的。

Mostly local fare...Rojak, Chicken Rice/Porridge, Mee Soto/Rubus/Goreng (i still can't tell the difference), 杂菜饭，云吞面，鱼片米粉，Char Kway Teow, Carrot Cake...

Damn disappointing. They closed down the Western & Teppanyaki stalls.

So i settled for Nasi Lemak with FRIED fish fillet, FRIED luncheon meat and FRIED chicken wing. 最接近我口味的也只有这个了...

Well...looking on the bright side, at least i won't be missing the food when i leave for Taiwan.

(PS: I'm gonna have the 台湾小吃 at Century Square basement for dinner tonight!!!)

做戏

2010-01-27T12:19:00.003+08:00

How I miss the Mediaworks-era Channel U... (not for personal reasons hoho)
Due to a lack of competition, MediaCxxx is getting complacent with the mediocre shows they are producing.

刚刚公布的2009节目收视率排行榜，一看就知道是MediaCxxx搞的鬼。

8频道排行第十的节目，竟然比U频道榜首的节目收视率高出三倍！
谁相信啊？

都已经合并那么久了，有必要继续打压U频道来突显8频道的superiority吗？

话说回来，把韩剧都放在U频道是对的。
毕竟，哈韩风是U频道带进新加坡的。

8频道就继续播你们自制的又长又臭又吵的缠脚袜长剧吧！
反正我又不看。

whatever...bitch

2010-01-23T12:50:00.000+08:00

Boycott the restaurant at IKEA Alexandra.

(I'll try to vent my frustration without using profanities. BITCH is not a profanity.)

When my mum flashed her IKEA Friends card at IKEA Tampines to redeem a drink, she was immediately handed a cup.
When I flashed the card at IKEA Alexandra to redeem a drink, the bitchy cashier insisted that I go find the Friends counter, use my card to redeem a drink coupon, then go back to her to redeem my drink.

HELLO?! If your Friends counter is located at the entrance of the restaurant, then I dun mind.
BUT your Friends counter is soO0 out of the way, I even had to ask people along the way before I eventually found it.

So you expect me to "earn" my drink by doing exercise when I dun even care to exercise at home?! So I'm suppose to adapt to your inflexibility and bossiness while you comfortably sit your big fat ass on that cashier stool?!

It's not as if you have to keep the drink coupon for reference, or use it to wipe your big fat ass after you shit. Eventually the drink coupon will still be returned to me.

I'm already pissed, and our dear bitchy cashier brought it to a whole new level.

When I politely asked if I could pay by NETS, she said "WHATEVER" while looking in another direction.

THAT'S IT MAN. THAT'S IT.
我没有当场发火，算是给你老人家面子。
给你脸，你不要脸。

That totally justifies why I took a feedback form and wrote an essay-length complaint letter.

If you lose your job, you can only blame yourself for saying the "W" word...at a CUSTOMER.
You wanna be a bitch? I'll outdo you.
You wanna step on my toes? I'll step back on yours...and CRUSH them.

NOBODY SAYS "WHATEVER" TO ME.
GET IT? BITCH.
Enjoy your early retirement.
Dun forget to thank me.

gimme drama (US)

2010-01-20T12:39:00.000+08:00

最近猛看连续剧，可是我的极限是一天五集，看太多头会痛。
而且我很容易半途而废，有些看了一集就不看了。
我专挑那种收视高/口碑好的，连续剧也有名牌的ok。

Here comes a series of posts entitled "GIMME DRAMA" (think Britney's "GIMME MORE"). First up, UNITED STATES OF AMERICA.

US:
After three episodes of "Gossip Girl", it is time to say goodbye despite a truckload of eye candy. A weak script is a weak script. No excuse.
Dun give me those "teen-drama-is-like-that" shit.

Look at "Glee", which I hail as the "professional" version of "High School Musical".
Most of the actors are from BROADWAY, and they're in their twenties (you can't tell at all).
They've got the looks, the vocals, the humour.
They've got IT.

Totally going gaga over Matthew Morrison, who plays the Spanish teacher.
O-M-G. I would totally take Spanish just for him.
And pretend I'm so dumb (yes PRETEND), so that we can have countless 1-on-1 consultations.

They really should have included a handsome teacher role in "High School Musical".

the best dun always finish first

2010-01-18T12:11:00.000+08:00

Spent the afternoon youtubing my fav American Idol contestants.
Most of my favs were NOT the ultimate winners, but black female singers who can sing their asses off (that was a compliment).
And the only black female singer who ultimately won (yes the duck-like Fantasia Barrino), was NOT the best of the lot.

If you're interested, go youtube these incredible ladies - Latoya London, Paris Bennett, Melinda Doolittle. They sure deserved to win.
Erm but look at those who won - Ruben Studdard, Taylor Hicks, David Cook. Where are they now?
Polishing their trophy at home every morning, while reminiscing about their glory days?

Season 9 is back!
Doubt I can catch every episode while I'm in Taiwan.
May the best man/woman win.

Oh yah to reiterate my point that "the best REALLY dun always finish first", look at AVATAR.
Golden Globes Best Picture & Director?!
My ass.

给全天下的坏人

2010-01-16T14:52:00.000+08:00

从小就听说，天使和魔鬼在我们身体里并存。
人死了，好人就上天堂当天使，坏人就下地狱当魔鬼。

坏人啊坏人！
你生前再怎么不择手段/心狠手辣/心机算尽，到最后还不是下B18？
你生前再怎么成功/富有/出名/受欢迎，到最后还不是任魔鬼使唤？

好好的一个好人，就是因为被你欺负/利用/剥削/折磨，才会变坏人的！
你们“坏人俱乐部”就那么缺人吗？

看《妻子的诱惑》，就是要看：好人如何报复坏人。
就算好人最后变成坏人也无所谓，我还是支持那个最初还是好人的坏人。

被欺负，就要报复。理所当然。
这不是坏人才有的想法。
往往坏人也是在被欺负/利用/剥削/折磨之后，才会变好人的。

。。。。。。。。。。。。
把好人坏人分得那么清楚，或许有点naive & childish。

不过，你做过什么坏事，你自己知道。
就算没有immediate karma，也只是时辰未到。
What matters is the ultimate karma:
IF YOU BULLY KIND PEOPLE, YOU WILL BURN IN HELL.

Let's see who will have the last laugh.

（PS: 大家放心，没人欺负我，只是看坏人不爽罢了。）

大男人老爸

2010-01-12T22:53:00.000+08:00

我老爸又惹到我了。
不免要跟他抬杠一番。

Case Study 1 -

故事背景：我阿姨（老妈的姐姐）是生意人，口才了得，跟陌生人也可以聊到天花乱坠，我一直觉得她很street-smart (in a good way)。偏偏我老爸看不顺眼。

爸：（对老妈说）你那个姐姐，跟不认识的男人也可以聊那么多，混一下就熟了，真随便。
我：我也很容易跟人混熟，那我也很随便咯？
爸：你不一样，你是男的。
我：姐姐也很容易跟人混熟，那她也很随便咯？
爸：她不一样，她是我女儿。
我：你女儿就不是女人啊？你老婆的姐姐不是女人啊？这样就叫随便？！你回去古代啦，起码可以抓她去浸猪笼... ...我看你活在现代也活得很辛苦！这个叫人缘，叫交际手腕... ...哎呀，你不懂的啦！因为这些你都没有。
爸：*无语*

Case Study 2 -

故事背景：为了讨论替我外婆请女佣的事，我叔叔在他家召开了家庭会议，出门前老爸对老妈再三嘱咐。

爸：（对老妈说）等一下开会，你不要讲太多话，让你哥哥弟弟去商量就好了。
我：为什么老妈不可以讲话？请她去开会，分明就是要听她的意见。去那边不讲话，还不如不去算了！哦，老妈是女儿，所以没有发言权是吗？要在那边静静坐着当花瓶是吗？再说，what do those uncles know about hiring maids？以前我们家的女佣，还不都是老妈选的？
爸：*无语*

看吧！碰到这种情况，叫我怎么积口德？

a day with me, myself & i

2010-01-10T19:11:00.000+08:00

Lazy weekend afternoon.
Parents are out.
Decided that I should be out too.

Haven't tried Express Teppanyaki in donkey years, ever since the one at Century Square basement closed down.
Guess what? It's back at Tampines Mall basement!

Teppanyaki in Jap restaurants are often too pricey.
Tried satisfying my craving once at Sakae, but ended up feeling cheated.
Express Teppanyaki is still DA BEST!
Under $10, u get garlic beef, bean sprouts (all time fav), green veg, rice, soup & drink!

Went Tampines library after lunch, cos I feel stagnant. Or rather my brain sent me a signal telling me it feels stagnant, since I haven't touched books for... ...one month plus.
(Imagine the number of books I touched for my CDP101 drama module.)

Searched for books by Mitch Albom.
ALL ON LOAN.
He should be proud.
He's a DAMN popular author.

Turned to Nick Hornby instead.
Ever since I watched "An Education" (which made my Top 10 films of 2009), his wicked sense of humour never fails to impress me.
Just 3 pages and I knew: "Slam" is the book I'm gonna lend.

Ended my afternoon with a sneak preview of "It's Complicated" at GV Tampines.
Go watch it! Lots of yellow jokes. HOHOHO.

PS: Meryl Streep is really an acting legend. Is there ANYTHING she can't act?!

女扮男装

2010-01-08T21:35:00.000+08:00

I'm surprised at my vulnerability for sad endings in comedies.

刚看完韩剧《原来是美男啊》，前几集笑到不行，最后几集哭到不行。

因为又是女主角女扮男装的桥段，所以刚开始看的时候，还有些不以为意，想看看“炒冷饭”能炒出什么新意。

现在只能说：我心服口服。完全被征服了。
才短短的十多集，就如此emotionally attached，我看我完了。

当初看日剧《花样少男少女》的时候也是这样。
结局没人死，也没人患绝症，女主角只是哭着一一道别罢了，我哭个屁啊？

有些剧集太煽情，摆明了要观众哭，我却哭不出来。
像这种偶像剧，前面嘻嘻哈哈，后面丢个催泪弹，我就哭惨了。

没办法，入戏太深就是这样。

PS：女扮男装，混入男生群中，好像不容易被发现。那么，男扮女装呢？

Q&A

2010-01-07T15:37:00.000+08:00

Q: "Eh how come ur blog no photos one ah?"

A: "Eh wanna see photos go see my Facebook profile lah!"

Q: "Eh how come ur Facebook photos no captions one ah?"

A: "Eh how come u have so many qns ah? U stalker ah?"

side effects

2010-01-05T20:48:00.000+08:00

Took my H1N1 vaccine today.
Doc said there's a 10% possibility of suffering from side effects eg. flu/cough/sorethroat.

Since it will take about one week for the side effects to surface, my dad CONVENIENTLY asked me to stay home and rest for the week (wow what a valid reason to ground me...as if I'd be grounded by THAT).
What's more: he FIRMLY believes that the 10% cases must have been serious enough to be hospitalised (the statistics ie. 10% must have been collated by hospitals to be published in the media). OH WOW.

So it's EITHER i suffer no side effects, OR i suffer side effects soO0 serious that I have to be hospitalised.
I better not sneeze even ONCE during the following week man.

Dad's theory: sneeze = flu = vaccine side effects = hospitalisation
EQUALS pls come and visit me at the hospital if I ask u to.

first discovery of 2010

2010-01-01T18:20:00.000+08:00

Facebook Photo Uploader.
I FINALLY figured it out.

Sayonara to the SIMPLE uploader.
Cos it SIMPLY gets on my nerves all the time.

YAY expect more (overdue) Facebook albums from me!

when A's become B's

2009-12-30T17:29:00.000+08:00

再怎么看，B还是不会变回A的。
唉！不看了。

前几晚没睡好，就是为了看它。
TSK！都不好看的。

I "nailed" it!

2009-12-27T18:44:00.000+08:00

一想到要在台湾住上五个月，最担心的竟然是：
不会剪指甲，怎么办？

难道每两个星期要上美容院做manicure吗？
That thought is scary enough to motivate me。

昨天，我生平第一次自己剪指甲。
剪得...还不错啦，可以更美。
于是又不停地修，结果我现在的指甲超短的。

You can't imagine how relieved me & my parents were, as we looked at my ultra-short fingernails with PRIDE.

oh wow oh wow~ best films of 2009

2009-12-25T11:55:00.000+08:00

Everytime I finish watching a movie, I will visit IMDb (The Internet Movie Database) to rate/comment/discuss.

电影好不好看，见仁见智。这个我知道。

But some films are soO0 good that they don't deserve any criticism at all.
I can't help but think that those haters are just trying to attract attention.

Biased as I may be, here are my 10 recommendations for 2009 (based on my vote history):

Fantastic Mr Fox
Up
(500) Days Of Summer
Slumdog Millionaire
The Hurt Locker
Departures (Okuribito)
十月围城 (Bodyguards & Assassins)
Inglourious Basterds
An Education
Bruno

oh wow just realised my top 2 are both animated films...and yes I excluded AVATAR.

new year's eves

2009-12-22T00:44:00.000+08:00

We cannot/should not stay home for New Year countdowns.
Yes another one of my weird theories.

That explains why I love countdown parties at Downtown East.
Free entrance, some Taiwanese celebrities (think 曹格/范玮琪), and the oh-so-touching "Auld Lang Syne" 大合唱 when the clock strikes 12.
BUT not this year.
Just because the organizers decided to charge $75 for a Hoobastank concert.
(PS: Nothing against Hoobastank, but one whole nite of Hoobastank??? Give me BLACK EYED PEAS or PUSSYCAT DOLLS anytime.)

To demonstrate how firmly I hold on to my theories, refer to New Year's Eve 2007.

My family decided to stay home.
My friends expressed no interest in countdown parties.
I randomly suggested having dinner with an ex-classmate who happened to be on MSN.
She brought her boyfriend along.
I was the biggest lightbulb in the restaurant.

We parted after dinner.
It was 3 hours to midnite.
Why go home?
So I went Orchard Cineleisure for a depressing anti-war movie "In The Valley Of Elah".
Yes. Alone. On New Year's Eve.

Took a train to Clarke Quay, waited for the clock to strike 12, witnessed the crazy crowds.
And took a train home.

Don't make me feel sorry for myself.
No "self-pity" in Royboy's dictionary.

Maybe I should just stay home this year and watch the live telecast of Taipei's countdown party.
Although that's not really what I want.

I always thought my old blog should have been dead by now...

2009-12-19T02:30:00.000+08:00

But the website is still valid. WOW.
FYI: http://zhipthechicken.blogspot.com

YES. Zhip The Chicken.
All because of that chicken pencil case my JC friends got me for my 17th birthday.
I even named it BENJI 笨鸡.

It should be hiding in some corner of some drawer in my house.

*after 10 mins of searching*

OH. 原来前年新年的时候，心血来潮来个大扫除，亲手把它丢进垃圾槽了。
Thanks Mum, for reminding me.

RIP Benji.
Who knows, I might just name my son after you.
Benji Liu. HAHA.
Poor son.

I dunno how long this thingy is gonna last...

2009-12-19T02:10:00.000+08:00

But since I registered for a NEW blog (yes I used to blog), let's see how far I can go...

JOY.
An essential element in ROYBOY's life.
Hopefully this blog will be filled with joyful posts.
Since there's nothing much in life for me to EMO about.

Even if certain posts tend to be a little EMO...
Rest assured that it will end on a joyful note.

=)